Okay, so this week has been... I don't even know how this week has been. It's been something. I am so so excited for sweet Sister Wilcox, but I am soooo sad to see her leave. Sister Wilcox will be going home to start the next chapter of her life this Thursday. She is going to do great things and I know she is being called for another mission the Lord has planned for her. Its just hard when friends leave. And because the transfer is not quite over I have been a little on the stressed side because I have not gotten any updates yet on what the plans are for me. There are no sister trios in the mission right now, so there is not a sister to come be my companion. SOOO... I will have to join another companionship and make a trio. I have no idea if I am going to be able to still cover my area. So that has been really hard for me. I know that I have been in Pima for a fat minute now, but I am not ready to leave! I love my crazy Pima ward. I feel so at home here and have made so many wonderful friends, honestly, everyone just feels like family. So this has been a really emotional week for sure. But after a lot of time on my knees I know that it's all in the Lord's hands and the sooner I let go and let him take it, the easier it will be. Still working on it, but I know that He has something planned for me.
Other than that little bit of news hahaha! An amazing highlight of this week was that we got to the temple for Halloween!! I did it last year with sister Gadd and President loved the idea of spending those trick or treating hours in the temple instead of being out and about, he gave all the missionaries a free pass to go to the temple! It was the best!!!! I got to see sooooooo many of my missionary buddies all in the temple. It was such a special night and something I probably won't ever forget.
So due to the sudden changes in my little world I have been reflecting a lot on my time here in Pima. Not going to lie, it gave me a ton of anxiety. I love this area and I love this ward so much I just want to give them all that I have. I started to get really down on myself. But I have been reminded of a lesson that I learned in my first area, and I know that I have shared it before but it is something I know I need to be reminded of again and again. And that is, 100% is not a fixed amount! It is always fluctuating, it never looks the same. But that doesn't mean that it was not 100%. The Lord asks us to do our best, but he never defines what that looks like. It is different for every person and individually, it changes everyday. Even moment by moment. We CANNOT get down on ourselves for the outward appearance of out 100%. It is a very clever way that Satan often uses to trip us. But we can hold on to the Savior and know that He will always fill in our gaps. He told us that we shouldn't run faster than we have strength. This week I want you all to remember that your Savior and your Father in Heaven LOVE YOU, so be kind to yourself and remember that YOU need to love you too.
And if it helps, don't forget that I love all of you too! Keep it real and have a fanfreakingtastic week this week!
Sister Grant 🌵
